First, I am amazed at life. Having a daughter of my own and watching her grow literally from day to day blows my mind. The fact that pants I put on her last week are too short this week is incredible. God is amazing when I stop to think he made this life that I am so in awe of. She's learned to clap and is learning when to clap. She's learned to say "wow" and is learning when to say "wow." He has shown me so much about his perfection in the last 18 months both while I was pregnant and now having Niah.
I am learning that it really is in God's timing and it really is in his control and there is nothing I can do about it. We moved to the Bay Area with the expectation of living at my parents' house for a month to a month in a half. Here we are almost 4 months later still at their house. But it's all working together for good. We've been blessed to save money to make the repairs needed, my parents have helped with Niah and spoiled us (and her) and we know he will allow us to move at just the right time. Here we thought we would be starting to work on the house this weekend and it's been postponed another week. But why worry? It won't change things. Like it or not, we aren't closing today so God is teaching me to say, "You are in control and I trust you." He hasn't let me down and promises he won't!
I am learning to give my insecurities up. When I am insecure I am focused on ME. Looking in the mirror at all the weight I haven't lost doesn't make me any less of a person. I am complete in Christ and if I have a few extra pounds, well okay. My body doesn't shape my identity! So why be insecure about it? It's easier said than done, but God is showing me that I don't need to be insecure, that my focus should be on other things.
I am learning to love and respect Kyle better. God is showing me I need to really listen to him and his needs, not just hear him.
There is more, but Niah's calling. God led me to share this, be blessed!
